Monday, October 20, 2014

Remembering . . .


A Pebble, Smooth 
and Worn

I watched you cross that bridge
without me.
Holding your hand,
whispering love
and love
and memories
(all of them good)
to carry along 
like a pebble, 
smooth and worn,
in a pocket.

All my love
all my heart
all my soul
longed to guide you
longed to smooth your way
longed to tell you
I’d be by your side
forever.

But I guess we always knew
you’d go alone.

You took the last step
without me.

My brother,
my friend,
my heart .












Friday, January 3, 2014

Imagine Ido's World



 Cue: Sci-fi theme music.

 A male voice speaks as a person who looks remarkably like you appears on screen:  

Imagine, if you will, that your body has turned against you. Perhaps you’ve had a terrible accident, or a strange new virus has attacked your neurological system. Once you’ve recovered, your body appears to be intact, and, yet, you are different. You want to walk to the kitchen, but your legs take you to the living room, instead. You're hot and sweaty, but you cannot initiate the movement which will allow you to remove your sweatshirt. You’re thirsty and you want a drink, but you cannot speak. When you are shown pictures of a drink and a cracker and asked to point to the one you want, your hand moves to the cracker, even though you willed it to move to the drink.  And when you are asked to point to your name, which you can still read, your hand points to someone else’s name, instead.  Unable to access the words you are thinking, doctors and other experts determine that your brain is damaged beyond repair. You are deemed “intellectually disabled” and forced to attend training classes where you must point to cards to show that you are capable of learning. All the time, you know exactly what is going on—you can still read and reason and think-- but you can’t express your thoughts and abilities. Your body continues to betray you. It’s like the wiring has gotten scrambled somewhere between your thoughts and your actions.

You find that if someone holds your elbow and offers gentle prompting, you can stay on task and control yourself enough to point at pictures, and perhaps even form letters with a pencil. Your hopes are raised—surely now someone will recognize that you are still intelligent, and that you are simply trapped inside your uncooperative body. Maybe you’ll be presented with a page of letters to spell out some kind of S.O.S. You are relieved to know that, finally, you’ll be able to express yourself again!  You can stop doing all the pointing drills in which you fail to demonstrate your understanding of numbers, colors, and letters. You can have genuine human interaction; you can be taught things at your true intellectual capability!

But—no. The experts don’t believe you were pointing to the correct answers of your own volition. They think you’ve been given too much support from your aide. If you are really intelligent, you’ll need to demonstrate for them without help.

Again, your body won’t obey.

Fine, say the experts. Show us that you can point with one of us holding your arm, instead. Maybe then we’ll believe you.

Anxiety floods your brain. Your uncooperative limbs are even more jerky and uncooperative. You are frightened that you’ll lose this chance to prove yourself, and, in your fear, you are unable to respond.

The verdict? Your intellect is nonexistent. You will continue doing unsupported pointing drills until you can demonstrate that you know your name, or the difference between colors, or the answer to one plus one.   

And the aide who offered you gentle support and prompting will be shamed for planting false hope in the minds of your family. It is clear that you have no capacity to learn.

Cut to darkness.
 

Does this sound like the premise for a horror story? Maybe one of Rod Serling’s Twilight Zone episodes-- it’s frightening enough. But it’s a scene which is playing out again and again in our own classrooms, and has been for years. It’s the challenge faced by countless nonverbal autistic people who are being denied the chance to find communication opportunities because they are being asked to demonstrate their understanding in ways which do not work for their condition.

It's akin to the challenge a quadriplegic person would face if he were asked to demonstrate his understanding of a concept-- to prove his intelligence--by raising his hand.

As I work on the revisions of my novel, Sepia, I continue to research autism and facilitated communication (see my Dec. 27, 2011 blog entry, Sepia, Autism, and Facilitated Communication, for further explanation).  And I was fortunate enough this past week to come across the blog and book of an autistic teen named Ido Kedar, called Ido in AutismlandI've just painted you a scenario which is eerily similar to Ido's struggles as a young, intelligent boy, imprisoned by the neurological misfirings of his autistic (yet otherwise intact) brain. What a nightmare he endured. And what a triumph of the spirit he has achieved.

Earlier this year, I read The Reason I Jump, by Naoki Higashida, a thirteen-year-old boy with severe autism. His perception and his empathy, his love and his fears of being burdensome to his family--they show a greater depth of emotion and far less ego-centrism than you might credit any thirteen-year-old with, and the story that he includes at the end is achingly beautiful. His work and Ido's certainly challenge the idea that autistic people do not possess "theory of mind" in which we are able to understand what others may be thinking as separate from what we, ourselves, are thinking.

There is a growing body of work by nonverbal autistic people (who have had the kind of support necessary to help them learn to communicate on their own terms) which I believe should be essential reading for all humanity. In the 2011 blog entry I referred to earlier, I mention other nonverbal autistic people who have managed to break out of their prisons—and there are many more I haven’t mentioned. Tito Mukhopadyhay, most notably, was taught by his mother, Soma, to write and type through a system she developed, called the Rapid Prompting Method. While many experts cast doubt on Soma's work because she supports and prompts her students as they learn to use a letterboard, it was Soma who helped Ido Kedar break free of his prison and learn to type and communicate. Ido now uses a letterboard and also a speech-enabled iPad to talk to others without anyone holding his arm, and his views and success challenge all of us to re-think our assumptions about facilitated communication and autism itself.

Ido’s autism is not cured. And he will be the first to say that he truly wishes there were a cure for autism, unlike many folks on the “higher” end of the spectrum who would like to be accepted by the world the way they are. Ido fights his body daily so that he can stay connected to the world which so many of us take for granted. But being taught to communicate has changed his life. He no longer despairs that he will always live as if he’s in a kind of hell, screaming inside for someone to recognize that his mind is intact while being drilled on the alphabet and simple preschool concepts. Now he is championing the cause of other nonverbal autistic people. He is trying to tell us that he is not an anomaly. He’s just one of the lucky ones, given a chance to communicate through a method that experts call “controversial”.  He’d like others to be given the same chance.

It is time for all of us to reexamine our beliefs about autism—especially severe autism. While we have learned a great deal about autism on the higher end of the spectrum from people who have Asperger’s, there is an assumption that those on the other end of the spectrum are suffering from the same neurological differences to a higher degree, and that they are also intellectually incapacitated. As Ido suggests, there exists the possibility that severe autism is a different form of neurological impairment (with many similiarities to Asperger’s), which means that the methods which work for some children on the autism spectrum are not going to work for all kids with autism. The inability of those with severe autism to function and respond may have nothing whatsoever to do with lack of intelligence, and everything to do with the approach that’s taken to teach them. And prompts, both physical and verbal, may be exactly what those on the severe end of the spectrum need in order to break through their prison walls.

When I began writing Sepia, one of my goals was to honor my disabled brother. Although he was intellectually disabled and not autistic, there was much more to him than met the eye. The fortunate few who took the time to get to know him were rewarded by their efforts. Out in public, most people turned away from him. Many would not even help us to get through a doorway when I pushed Bobby in his wheelchair. I believe that too many people are willing to dismiss others who are “different” as being somehow less human than others. It is this kind of thinking which I rail against.

Mickey Callahan, one of the main characters in my book, is nonverbal, intelligent, and autistic. There is so much more to him than he is given credit for. I want my readers to see people with disabilities differently after meeting Mickey. The power of story, the power of print--it is phenomenally strong. 

Reading Ido’s and Naoki’s writings makes me even more passionate about opening people’s minds to release their limiting views toward those with disabilities.  We need to look past people’s differences and embrace our common humanity. We need to be willing, always, to look for the potential in others, and to seek out ways to break down the barriers that divide us. We cannot remain satisfied with the status quo. It is time to push past old assumptions and explore other avenues of learning and communication for those who are at our mercy. Just because drill and point methods may work for some students, we cannot operate as though they will work for all. 'Sink or swim' is an unacceptable educational philosophy for any student. It is especially repugnant for students with special needs. We cannot be afraid to explore methods of facilitated communication because there is (heaven forbid) support embedded into the process.  What are we afraid of? Success?

Please read a recent article about Ido here, and view the embedded video which you’ll find halfway through. Read Ido’s blog. Check out his Facebook page. Instead of high fives, high praise is due to this young warrior who challenges us to help him change the world. Read his book, Ido in Autismland. He’s already begun to open my eyes. Will you hear him, and open yours?